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zeeheehee
15 May 2012 @ 11:13 pm
It’s so easy to get sucked into the “Mom” role, don’t you agree?
It’s so easy to just wake up in the morning and know what you’re all about..take care of your child/children. Everything else has the tendency to just be at the background. Hey,you could suck at work or not do anything else productive but hey,you’re a mom. This is something we commonly hear…different variations of course. At times,not too good variations..
“I gained weight..I had 3 kids kasi,I’m a mom.”
“I can’t focus at work and have to rush home..I’m a mom.”
“I’ll berate and verbally abuse the darn airline ground crew because I need something for my kids..hey,I’m a mom.”


And so on and so forth.

People take it in so easily too. Mothers have special privileges,the same way they seem to have magic through the eyes of their loved ones. Being a mom,automatically seems to give one a certain level of maturity, and privileges by sometimes skipping a line at the restroom by whipping out that toddler..”Nanay yan. Okay lang”
This is true..I don’t look like a typical mom and people treat me differently when they think I’m a “Miss” but if I have to,I whip out the mom card or tell them I have a daughter and everything just automatically gets fixed like the Red Sea suddenly parting for Moses.I use it when men try to hit on me too. Nothing like telling them about your child that makes them run the other way..Aaah,the priviliges of being a mom. I hated this when I was single,by the way. Sometimes we let that “mom” role define us..always last, always strong, always gives her arm plus leg and add on the appendix. Mother with the martyr roles and some who just use it and abuse it (Yeah..admit it. There are some..)

Mothers are definitely special. In fact,the most number of text messages sent is during Mother’s Day,not Christmas,not New Year.  My Mark and Bea gave me a special Mother’s Day by not letting me work the whole day. This includes cleaning up after the new puppy, cooking and washing dishes ( I don’t have a helper on weekends..so I’m "Inday" during weekends). We also had a Mommy Day out and I had my choice of resto. So,I chose Mamou because I love their steak (and normally not supposed to have any) and plus they had free Sonja’s Red Velvet cupcakes for moms (which Bea ate).
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They had this grand plan of leaving me at The Spa so that they could find a surprise gift but that really didn’t pan out too well. The spa a.k.a. the mommy version of Gymboree. The massage was supposed to make me feel relaxed but being naked around other people,having strangers touch me and seeing other naked women just stresses me out. Weird phobia but it does. So for two hours my stomach was clenched and that really wasn’t relaxing. It was terribly sweet of them,though. I was so touched. I was also stressing because leaving both of them alone,usually means trouble. When I came out of The Spa,my fluffies got stuck in the rain it seems and didn’t get to find a surprise. I was fine with that of course. Just seeing them playing and laughing together was enough to make me smile. I was also still stressed over the people-nakedness-massage experience and just wanted to rest and enjoy my funny,different,silly family.
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See? Who wouldn’t be spoiled? Who wouldn’t love to be a mother? Some households revolve around the mother. They revolve so much around the mother that we forget that she’s a woman first and foremost. Sometimes even mom forgets she’s a woman. A woman who should be the best she could be, excels, grows, learns..physically,emotionally, psychologically and spiritually. A woman who uses her being a mother to mold and shape and not be examples of the old,famous ad “Ang ginagawa ng matanda any nagiging tama sa mata ng bata.” Sometimes as mothers we forget that being the best woman you can be can make you the best mom you can be. They say the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world. Let it be the best hands then. 

Belated Happy Mother's Day,lovely mommies and mommies to be!


 
 
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zeeheehee
15 May 2012 @ 06:58 pm
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I haven’t posted in a while. In fact, most of my posts have begun with this sentence lately. I haven’t had much drive to write,I guess. Some people have asked me to update. So,I’ll post in bullet points and pictures to make things easier.

I’m Still In Love
Yup, everything’s fine and dandy and more than Mark and I could ever dream of. We had a trip to Cebu to plan the wedding with both families meeting for the first time. That was nerve wracking but we angled a final date and September 8,2013 is it or forever hold your peace.
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We Love Being Silly..All Three Of Us
Bea and Mark are a handful and so much fun. They make me laugh so hard,it’s difficult to be in a bad mood when both of them are around.
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Lipstick Frenzy
I’ve been on a terrible lipstick frenzy lately and have acquired around 10 (MAC, Lancome, Estee Lauder, Shisheido, Chanel,etc..) the past 3 months including a Bobbi Brown 20 color Anniversary palette. I don’t know,it makes me feel better. I have buyers remorse but boy,are my lips bright.

Changes at Work
Everything has been flat lining since I ended my community project. I just come in once in a while to consult. So,my usual hyper self has been needing an extra boost lately. Thus, I have a new job by end of May. I’m excited.

Vader
We bought a new puppy. Bea’s dog,Ashley and our hamster Poofy died last month. It was just so sad. I told Bea we get a dog after our wedding next year and in the meantime,I get her a long haired guinea pig. Nope..when we got to Tiendesitas,this ball of black puff just captured my heart. We named him Vader and he’s the size of a guinea pig so I guess,it’s the same thing. Though a guinea pig licking me would be just weird.
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I’ll post something with more substance soon..like this week. * crosses fingers *
 
 
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zeeheehee
06 February 2012 @ 02:33 pm

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I love traveling. Generally, I travel to know the culture,see art works and just relax. Shopping is far from my agenda. Mark and I decided to go to Singapore to watch Wicked. Something we both have been looking forward to..him more than me since he loves the play’s music. His love for musicals is another blog entry altogether but I love him more for this.

It was also my birthday and the trip was his birthday gift though,it seemed he had a secret agenda in mind as he was planning to propose at the Singapore flyer during this trip but alas..he ended up doing so before we left. So my Singapore pictures basically show my swollen eyes and I was emotional the whole time and I would suddenly sob..Dear God,this man has turned me into a piece of mush! It was good that he did propose before hand because our trip went haywire because of a bout of food poisoning and the Singapore flyer plans literally got flushed down the toilet. Haha.

The Scarlet Hotel
Our hotel was great. Scarlet Hotel (http://thescarlethotel.com/) is a kitschy boutique hotel with such wonderful interiors. Their website kind of has a strange S & M feel (which we say AFTER we booked through Agoda). It piqued my curiosity some more and we were not disappointed at all. I didn’t get to take a lot of pictures,though.

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I love their lobby. That’s my chubby hubby-to-be checking in.:) I love these flowers in the bathroom. I bought seeds when I got back to Manila and we’ll plant some of these at our condo.

Hawker Food
I love street food and it usually drives my travel companions crazy when I suddenly disappear into a hole in the wall resto or holding unto food I got from somewhere. Hey,it’s Singapore and one just can’t skip hawker food houses. The choices are usually overwhelming and it’s so cheap!
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Yes,I eat a lot and I love indian food. Mark had these chinese noodles he loved so much that he ate it twice during the trip and he ended up with food poisoning. Travel tip: don’t eat shellfish when traveling to be safe. You will never know how fresh it is or where the heck it came from. They said it was the “cockles” that was on the noodles but when they pronounce it,it sounds a lot like “cockroach”..haha. Either way,we spent the last 2 days in our yummy hotel. Iron stomach me, didn’t feel anything despite the Indian food fest I had.

Wicked!
Wicked was just amazing. The lead cast blew me away. I’ve seen the videos of the original cast but in my personal opinion,this Australian cast was just as talented,even more. The timing and rapport was incredible. The energy was intense. I was mesmerized by the costumes. It all had a deconstructed feel to it and just eccentric. I was sobbing at some parts and the front row tickets were so worth it. I think the fact that Mark could see every single underwear from where we were,made it doubly worth it for him. Haha. It’s a must see. I’m still on a Wicked high and this was a month ago.
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We wanted to dress up so we did. I avoid heels when traveling so I stuck with gold flats with my dress. The pre requisite picture at the LV store had to be done too. Ugh..eyes were so swollen.O_o

Museum Hop
I wanted to go to a lot of Museums but time just wasn’t enough. It’s wonderful that Mark’s twin,Chris is an artist (his talent needs a separate post as well) and that Mark is such an artistic soul too. I LOVE IT! I absolutely love it because I have people to drag to museums and not get bored. I can stay in a museum for hours. It just makes me happy. Singapore Art Museum was a must!
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I still think it was the best Singapore trip I have ever had despite the lack of time and canceled schedules..the company really matters. We plan to go back again sometime in the year to finish the actual agenda and just relax..and maybe watch Wicked again if it's still showing. It was that good.:)











 
 
zeeheehee
17 January 2012 @ 07:31 pm
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After going through an annulment and every single thing prior to it,one thinks a million times before even seriously thinking about marriage. For good reason and the way it should be. Rose colored glasses are off from the very beginning and is replaced by skepticism (not cynicism) at all times. Just like the movie, Jerry Mcguire..you've seen the puppet strings and have been there. For someone like me,I felt that marriage was just a piece of paper that can be dissolved just like any contract. The biggest consideration for someone like me is my child and the acceptance. That is a challenge. It's psychologically and emotionally draining that you don't even want to think about it. Being a single mom is hard,being a single mom in love is harder. It was not easy for Mark at all but from the very beginning,he seemed so sure and wanted it so much he could taste it like the bacon he had for breakfast. If you're with someone who believes in you and shows you that a future with them is the best thing that can ever happen to you,it's hard not to seriously think about it.

I kept thinking, "Why fix something when it ain't broke?". We are very happy and even without a commitment like marriage,will always be happy. Last year,I literally asked him for one good reason why we have to get married and all he said was "Because I don't want to say goodbye anymore,just good night." Before you say "Aaaaaw...how sweet.",may I remind you that I have a very eloquent advertising guy for a boyfriend (Though,I did melt when he confidently just blurted that out). He gives me the cheesiest lines everyday (he means them but it makes me roll my eyes and face palm.which makes him do it even more). Even then, I knew he was right. Something was amiss. He spends so much time at home,my place seems lacking without him. Bea and our prayer and reading time seems incomplete (Bea's words) without him around. He tucks us in to bed and says goodbye and it's just not the same. I was happy with Bea and having a cute happy family of two plus yaya (sort of like Sharon Cuneta and KC before Kiko came along) but everything just seems happier and right with him around. It was a dilemma.

Of course,living together was not an option. I'm still really conservative about those things and I wouldn't know how to explain all that to a little girl who after all she has been through,still believes in marriage and happy endings. Still believes in the "proper" way and is a member of the St.Marie Eugenie Club in school and assists at every mass at Assumption.O_o
What if we want to have kids of our own? What happens then? Again,it can be so convoluted that one does not want to deal with that sort of commitment. But we did. Because Mark has shown me that he is true to every single cheesy word that comes out of his mouth. Because I believe in us and as long as we keep loving,laughing,playing and working together, everything else in life will be easy for us to tackle or at least we will have a hoot trying. Eventually, I realized that it wasn't just Bea who still believed in marriage and happy endings. I did too. Mark made me see that it is possible.

Bea’s "Are You Perfect For Mom?" Test
Bea decided that her Tito Mark should do a “Are You Perfect For Mom?” Test before he could even propose. I think it should be named “Are you perfect For Bea?” Test too. She prepared for it and it took both Me and Mark by surprise. For a while,I thought he would fail on some questions and tasks but he pulled through and it ended the way we all wanted it to end. I wanted it shorter but they are both so funny and sweet. Here it is:


Mark actually proposed before my birthday. On the ring, is the inscription "Only You". We have had a lot of trials in our relationship and these words reassures us the most. It wasn't the ring that made me all emotional..it was when I read the inscription. That's when I really lost it. In my heart,I knew I found the one who loves only me. Just me. Imperfect, crazy, headstrong me.

This picture I love the most.. We believe in happy endings for imperfect,funny families..for people of all ages,shapes and sizes, for weird,quirky, nutty people, for those who think they are too hard & difficult to believe in these things, for everyone who thinks they are just plain different and have stopped believing..Somewhere out there is that perfect joy for imperfect people. 

Happy endings are not just for Cinderellas, Snow Whites and the Brady Bunch. 
This is just the beginning of new adventures for us.
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zeeheehee
03 January 2012 @ 03:18 pm

2011..what a year. I never had a more difficult year. That’s saying a lot after all I have been through in life. 2011 was an emotional,psychological and physical barrage of difficulties. It felt like everything was just going haywire.

I saw so many smiles, tears,hope, frustration and death..so much of it in 2011. It was heart warming and heartbreaking at the same time. It was like watching Old Yeller, Fox & the Hound or Bambi over and over again. The sad parts.

Everyday,it was heartbreaking. Even if I didn’t show it and just continued to keep a brave face one,it broke my heart and I was crying inside. All I can see were faces of those who needed help and like a charging bull, I continued and just kept on my projects. I guess my body couldn’t take it anymore because by the end of the year,I got sick. Everything made me sick. The doctor said I had Thalassemia. Triggered by stress,triggered by the attack to my immune system.

I ended 2011 on a brighter note. Bright because I decided to just focus on family and the man who makes me happy. I’m still adjusting to everything but I decided to just focus on things that will not make me sick..like painting,writing, hosting. Things that just allow me to be busy.

Paint!
Painting will always be my life force. When I’m down,I paint. When I have to just relax,I paint. 2012,I plan to just paint up a storm.

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Write!
I haven’t been blogging much. Too much to share or too little,I guess. I have been writing AVP’s and scripts. It has been fun and fulfilling. It’s nice to know that clients appreciate my creative writing and great to see them materialize on video.

Host
This takes a physical toll on me and I haven’t been doing much but over the holidays, I did several and hey..I still like it. I should do more of it in 2012.
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FamilyBea and Mark..my family here in Manila. I feel more of a spouse now than I ever was when I was married. So this is how it is to have a partner in life. So this is how it is to have someone who loves you,adores you and makes you happy.

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I have also been spending a lot of time with my family. They fly in to Manila and I get to spend time with them. My mom…I love my mom even if she does drive me nuts sometimes. I guess all of our moms do at one point in our lives. I love how strong she is.

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I spent Christmas at Mark’s and he spent New Year with mine in Cebu..it made me feel complete. I think I want this for the rest of my life.

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I want to put 2011 out of my head. I learned hard lessons but they made me stronger. It wasn’t an easy year because I guess I like complicated things. It seems that the things that can make one happy are the simplest..love and family.

 
 
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zeeheehee
21 December 2011 @ 01:49 am

I'm sick and tired of being sick. I'm sick and tired of being fatigued all the time,of feeling like I drank an entire bottle of Patron and a.truck ran over me every morning. I hate my diet and knowing thay sticking to it and basically being inactive is the only way for me to feel better. Not even permanently but when I stick to it daily. I feel like an effin invalid. My 70 yr old mother has more energy. It's not fair to the people I love. What kind of life can I offer them?

 

I know I have no right to complain and whine when so many people are suffering and have died because of Sendong but I'm just feeling really bad about this. I feel helpless,sick anx tired. Physically,emotionally and psychologically.

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zeeheehee
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Finding Lolo Luis was a touching story.I had to find out who decided to share the story in order to find him:

All It Took Was To Share A Story Of Lolo Luis
http://stubbornfilipina.com/post/13195784279/lololuismatias

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hank God there are still people who are willing to help.
 
 
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zeeheehee
21 November 2011 @ 05:38 pm

I needed a unit to replace my trusty old Blackberry Bold 9000. Yes,the one with the ball. I named him BB Gandanghari and had been with me for quite some time. Well,BB Gandanghari has been wonky once too many times and since my guy isn’t using a Blackberry,the BBM feature really hasn’t been much of a use for me. My first thought was really to get the iPhone 4S because I am an Apple  fan (Steve Jobs rocks...RIP). I just never thought I would go Android until the Samsung Galaxy Note. Unthinkable.
 
I am not a tech blogger and really,specs confuse me “1.4Ghz of what?! And what does that do? Oooh..” So I will write about the Galaxy Note like the layman I am. I only have had experience with 2 Samsung units (I think I’ve blogged about them). Both got stolen. Why? Because Samsung makes pretty phones and thus,makes it attractive to thieves (that's how I rationalized it in my mind both times). Yes,how non-techy can I be? I got those units because they were pretty. No one has ever tried to steal any of the Nokia’s I’ve had.
 
The Better To See You,My Dear…
I’m a small girl with really small hands. This is how small my hands are compared to Mark’s.
The Galaxy Note is and I find it too big to be a phone but perfect as a tablet. I never got into the tablet thing because the iPad is so darn huge and heavy (aminin). The Galaxy Note has a 5.3” screen and what a screen. It has HD Super AMOLED and they say it’s a high resolution screen. I say,I can see the pores on your face if you we’re in it and it’s wonderful. My 4th Gen iPod’s (named PeaPod) screen pales in comparison. I could say,this screen makes my television in the house cry in envy because I'm not subscribed to HD cable. I love how big it is since I am a girl who needs glasses but in denial and it really is the size of a notebook.
 
Transitioning to Android
I admit,when I turned it on for the first time,I was amazed and overwhelmed. I was sweating bullets and was trying to figure out where the heck all those apps came from (I live in a sheltered Apple world)! I had analysis paralysis for a few minutes then realized I was overthinking it,treated it like my iPod and hey,it’s not that bad. Not bad at all. Of course being the OC person I am,the first thing I did was arrange the apps into neat little folders.
 
What I feel was very different about it versus the iPhone/Blackberry is that it’s so darn fast and reactive. I press it pops. It downloads so fast,I was surprised. Specs say (not like I understand them) that it has HSPA+ 21Mbps or 4G LTE 1.4GHz dual core processor or to explain it fully to me,my boyfriend said “It’s as fast as Jourdan (my Macbook Air..Air Jordan,get it?)”  Yes,I name my tech toys.
 
Falling In Love
I love notes. I love writing on notebooks. I love drawing and painting. I love illustrating when doing notes. I bring colored pens around everywhere and my office notebooks looks like this:
 
Illustrating makes me think. Color coding stops me from being bored.. and yes,I love capturing ideas and just writing them. My bag has pens AND a notebook and colored pens. Now I just have the Galaxy Note and my notes look like this,which is wonderful!:
 
I can integrate pictures and scribbles and color! You can do your mood board or notes that keep me sane. I love S Memo! PERFECT!
 
About That Stylus
I admit it’s that it’s the first time I have ever used a stylus. It seems this thing works just like the pen and can read my penmanship easily which says a lot. A LOT.
It has a button on it which I have a hard time finding that does shortcuts and this I need to get used to and I have the fear or losing the darn thing but I guess that would not be the unit’s fault.
 
Apps Schmaps
I love Twitter,LJ, Facebook, Tumblr and my life revolves around my email. All this as expected is on my little neat Galaxy Note.  Except it’s bigger. Emails,calendars,contacts are Gmail supported so that made things easy for me. The calendar feature is very convenient and easy to use. Format is a lot like Outlook where you just drag and drop appointments.
 
I wanted to wait for the iPhone 4S for the Siri. It just seemed so amazing but after hearing from friends who have it,it seems to be not as compatible in the Philippines as it should be and after the novelty has faded and they have asked the poor app all the questions imaginable,they stopped using it. I did discover that the Galaxy Note has this Voice Talk feature that let’s you dictate and do things like search,call,text.. somewhat like Siri.
 

 

Phone and Camera Capabilities
It can call..and text. What else can one need?
The camera is 8 megapixels of pore revealing clarity. So there goes my plans of getting a camera.

8 megapixels of my little princess

 

I have just had my new tech toy for a few days but so far, these are the things I love about it. It’s 5 in the afternoon and my battery life is still at half and I’ve been using it the whole day without the power saver chuva. If I were using my Blackberry or iPod (especially on iOS5), I would have been charging 2 hours ago.
 
I’m perfectly happy with my Galaxy Note. It loads faster and is bigger but minus the pens,notebook and my blackberry in my bag, my bag is a lot lighter. It’s from Samsung so it’s so pretty.. I just hope nobody steals it this time.
 
Now I wonder what I should name it…. Hmmm…Any suggestions?
 

 

For a techy take on it:
http://www.samsung.com/global/microsite/galaxynote/note/benefit.html?type=find
 
 

 
 
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zeeheehee
16 November 2011 @ 11:55 am
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For those who want children's artworks as presents,pls.contact me. I can only do a limited number for Christmas.

Email: zhernaez@gmail.com

For other samples:
http://stubbornfilipina.com/zarahhernaez
 
 
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zeeheehee
06 November 2011 @ 12:30 pm
Cebu is always a place for family and friends. Bea and Mark were there with me for a few days and we spent the afternoon at a friends’ house in Mactan. The place has a fresh water spring and fish/shrimp ponds. We spent weekends at that place called Guiwanon or G1 when we were in highschool and college. The place holds lots of memories for me and my friends. 

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Sorry,Luv and Jay but Tita Angie represents you here. :)

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We had a wonderful lunch and the afternoon was spent just talking and spending time with my “amigas” while Mark and Be a created their Adventure Club. I think I'm club secretary because moms can be no fun.:) This was how their club was born and their first adventure :
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My little and and not so little adventurers go on a crazy adventure!

1) A DANGEROUS bridge!
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2) A YOGA frog!
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3) a SKELECHON of Doom!
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4) Three JUMPING rocks
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5) Mom's BUTT! (Ugh!)
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6) The HIGHEST slide in the world!
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A club is never without rules. My amazing little adventurers and their adventure club rules:
  1. Have fun!
  2. Be fashionable!
  3. Have fun being fashionable!
 
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Thank you to the Unchuan's for the wonderful food and hospitality! Though we crash G1 often..and err..for years. :)
 
 
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